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''You are in a narrow gorge, where nature in some primeval convulsion has torn the hills apart and clothed them again with verdure ...''

Julius Ward ~ The White Mountains ~ 1867

We said farewell to North Woodstock in July and moved north of Franconia Notch to Bethlehem, where we bought a 100-year-old farmhouse on a hill.

We have mostly unpacked, but have yet to begin splashing paint on the walls and start putting our mark on our new home. Plenty of time for that ...

After the wedding!! The big day is in two weeks. Yikes.

Fall has taken hold of the mountains. This morning, there is a frost and a bite to the air. The colors on the hill across the street are braiding themselves into the landscape. The days now are clear and impossibly blue, but it seems to get a little colder everyday.

We will look forward to such a day on our wedding day. Clear and bright and full of promise - a day to share with friends and family and to always remember ...

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Farewell, Old Man ...

The tumble of the Old Man, in the early hours of last Saturday, caught everyone off guard. Surely, while few of us had doubted such a formation could continue defying gravity, we figured this granite icon was good for as long as we were.

What also caught us unaware is the emotion that has flowed in the aftermath. Because few of us ever really thought that the Great Stone Face would fall in our lifetime, we had also never really thought about what that would mean to us individually and in our collective psyche.

We are finding that for every piece of crumbled rock resting below Cannon Cliffs, there is a memory and a piece of our hearts attached.

For some, the Old Man was a destination at the end of a journey. Getting there to see him meant a long summer`s ride in a station wagon, maybe with a bunch of cousins and an arsenal of fluffernutters. It was taking in a bear show at Clark`s and a splash in Echo Lake and between those times, the station wagon was pulled over and everyone looked skyward. Long after growing up, a glimpse of the Old Man would bring those memories back over the years and a succeeding generation would seek to recreate those days with their own children.

For others, to see the Old Man come into view meant they were almost back home or that in just a few minutes, they would be at their grandmother`s house.

But those feeling the loss of the Old Man most deeply are those who lived and grew up in the vicinity of his gaze. Maybe as children, they fought siblings for backseat rights that would let them see the Old Man first.

As adults, they would drive by him on their way to and from work and like a cherished neighbor they pass on the street, to go by the Old Man and not acknowledge him would be rude.

The Old Man was such a part of the landscape, it was almost like he was a protector or a guardian or the keeper of the Notch. In a world of rapid and bewildering change, the Old Man was steady at his vigil. He did not change. He was just always there and there was something greatly comforting about that.

Now that he`s gone, there is a feeling of vulnerability - the protector, the guardian, the keeper is gone. Who`s there to watch over us? Who`s there to listen to what we have to say him? Who`s there for children to wave at?

In these few days after the fall, it is still hard to fathom, much less even say out loud - the Old Man is gone.

Wishful thinking would have the whole past week be a bad dream and in the morning, the profile would be there.

The Old Man has been staring southward for 10,000 years or more, but he was a relatively recent discovery - he was just two years shy of celebrating the bicentennial of his discovery. We had less than 200 years to enjoy him. Our parents, their parents and their parents introduced each succeeding generation to him, but part of the collective sadness this week is the regret that those who follow will not know the strength, the inspiration, the awe or the comfort of the Old Man.

And so we now try to figure out how to best to remember the Old Man of the Mountain. Do we do everything we can to recreate his visage high above Franconia Notch and if we do, will that assuage the aching emptiness on that cliffside? Could a mere replica inspire poets, charm children, uphold the identity of an entire state or remedy our broken hearts?

Or do we realize that the hand of man can never recreate the wonder of nature? Do we let the Old Man rest in peace - and pieces - with a modest memorial to explain to those who follow us why his image remains - and must remain - 10, 20, 200 years from now.

Nature proved this week that what it can make, it can also take away. It showed that it is not static.

We lost a huge symbol this week, but who is to say that nature is finished making marvels, creating wonder and provoking mystery. Tomorrow or 10,000 tomorrows from now, there may be another night of hard rain and high winds and frost. The hillsides may shake and rumble and change, unseen in the fog that so often cloaks high elevations.

And when that veil lifts, possibly on a blue sky day like last Saturday, perhaps a new generation can find a source of strength and pride and awe, one we can`t even imagine today.

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Feb. 8

Winter has held little back this year. We have had our share of snow and more snow. And then there were the three weeks of temperatures too below cold.

H-I-B-E-R-N-A-T-I-O-N was the word.

But today ... well ... today was one of those magnificent February days with warm sun, a cool breeze and lots of fun.

We went to the Frostbite Follies in Franconia this afternoon and came upon this pretty picture.

And then we were glad for all the snow and the cold for the chance to simply see it.

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January 5, 2003

I have been bemoaning the passing of the holiday season, which came and went way too fast this year, to anyone who would listen the past week.

Maybe it was the succession of snow storms and the very short days, but all I could think was that when the holiday lights came down, nothing loomed ahead these next few months but stormy days and a black and white landscape.

I had promised Jayne I would get out with her today, which was my first day skiing. Up before the sun, I saw few clouds over the mountains and the sun starting to jump over them. Funny how the morning paper said it would be ... quote ... bleck ... today.

As much as I love skiing ... and I have been hitting the slopes for more than 30 years ... it`s getting ready for it that nearly defeats me every time. Getting up, getting dressed in lots of clothes and what feel like cement blocks on my feet, leaving the warm house for the cold car ... it`s a struggle not to just stay in bed.

Still, there is an excitement in a cold winter morning, a day after a snowstorm, that just makes you feel like you`re on a rush to the top of the world.

We weren`t quite the first skiers in line for the chairlift, but we would make some of the first tracks on Cannon.

On the ride up that chair, clouds were lifting off the imposing summit of Mount Lafayette and the sun was coming over Franconia Ridge. The slopes below us were beautifully groomed. The air was sharp, with little wind.

We couldn`t help but just grin. Wide open, tilt-your-head-back-grins. We just sat on the ride up, marveling at the mountains, turning around as far as we could to see the landscape stretching over two states behind us.

Most others had gotten up much earlier than we did to make this trek north and when the day ended, they would be on a highway on their way home. We, we mused, are lucky enough to live here.

I remembered today and soon forgot about my trepidation for January. I have had no better day in recent memory. A woman named Ruth Strout wrote about winter:

There is a privacy about it which no other season gives you. In spring, summer and fall, people sort of have an open season on each other; only in the winter, in the country, can you have longer, quiet stretches when you can savor belonging to yourself. 

Happy New Year, dear friends, and the all the best in 2003.

PS - If you have a copy of the January Reader`s Digest, please take a look at page 26, under Everyday Heroes. I`m pleased the magazine selected one of my stories for that section.